The Pedometer

So I have been signed up to start my own blog for about 5 months, and I never got around to actually writing.  For some reason the pedometer my roommate gave me today inspired me to start writing.

You might ask why would a pedometer make me start writing?  Well, my life is in a changing phase right now.  The changes may have good or  bad, and maybe change instills fear into me, but nonetheless, I'm changing.

It all started a couple of months ago when my parents decided to buy a condo in the city for my roommate and I.  We attend college in the city, and this will be the place where I can finally call my own in two years.  Prior to this I was living on campus, and it never really felt like home.  The next change that came along was my boyfriend and I spliting up.  A long story, and definitely a hard decision, but in the end it was the best.  Another change came a couple days ago when I was walking through the grocery store with my parents and I realized that I was having such a hard time breathing from just walking around a damn grocery store.  That day was the day I realized my life really had to change or my body was going be in serious trouble very quickly.

Today, I made another change.  I started REALLY taking care of myself.  An extra breathing treatment, a scandishake, and a walk.  All of those things are pivitol parts to get my life back in order.  

You are probably still wondering what all of this has to do with a pedometer.  My roommate came home from work today and dropped a pedometer in front of me and said, "here this might help."  It was an "Ah Ha" moment for me.  As early as yesterday, I might have thought the pedometer was the devil.  Something always hooked to your pants pushing you to make those 10,000 steps, and if you don't it makes you feel like a failure for the day.  But for some reason I didn't see the pedometer in that light today.  It was telling me to try it out, and even though I might not get those 10,000 steps in like a normal healthy person, I can make a goal for myself and try to push past that goal.  Even though my pedometer is red, and probably does have some devilish tendencies, maybe I need to look the devil right in the face and tell it I am not scared of it anymore and I am going to work with the devil to reach my potential.

The pedometer signifies a new change and a new way of looking at things.  Maybe I will hate the pedometer, but for tomorrow I am going to have to face the devil and tell him I am not scared, and we will walk together to face my fear of change.